Dreams

Been dreaming a lot of dreams lately, I generally dream a lot but I don't often remember them, or they fade away quickly upon awakening. I rarely dream things that mean anything, but when I do, they really stick with me.

The latest dream I had that woke me up a few mornings ago, first let me explain why I believe I had this dream, I found an article on Wikipedia about the "drowning response", it's what is actually happening when a person drowns, it's not the kicking flailing screaming scene you see in the movies, it's actually very fast, without much movement. So now to my dream, I was dreaming about the underground tunnels (actually drainage tunnels) that are near where I grew up. These tunnels are pretty big, at least if you are a kid, I believe most adults would be able to stand up in them, I played in them as a kid and a teen, these went under the parking lot of the shopping center and dumped out into a creek, then that lead to some even bigger tunnels, ones you could drive a pickup truck through.


In my dream I was a young boy of about 10 or 11 years old, I was riding a bike across the parking lot of the local shopping center. There was a large carnival going on, it was getting late in the evening, the sun was going down but it wasn't completely dark yet, it was that time of evening when you turn your headlights on but you can still see light in the sky, I was mesmerized by the lights and activity of this carnival but I knew I needed to go home.

As I was riding my bike across the parking lot towards where I lived, I felt this impending danger, something really bad was coming and I might not outrun whatever it was, I didn't think I could make it home. I got to the edge of the parking lot and ditched my bike, I ran into the center of 3 tunnels that are down in a creek bed that goes through the neighborhood, once I got in there, I realized this wasn't the best place to hide so I tried to run out but a great wash of water was flooding in, it was a couple of feet deep and getting deeper, it was moving fast, I had no chance to get out that way, I turned and ran the other way, deeper into the tunnel.

As I was nearing the other end, it changed, in real life the other end of this tunnel is just as open as the first end, but in the dream this tunnel closed down into something very small, there was a concrete ledge going up and I had no choice but to climb, it continued going up like a spiral staircase made of concrete, each level becoming smaller and tighter, the water was coming up behind me. The space became so tight that I was squeezing and contorting my body to get around the next part, I had this thought, "I'm so glad I know these tunnels like the back of my hand...", no sooner had I thought that when my head became stuck in the next turn, I couldn't go any further, it had become too small for me to continue, I didn't believe I could go back the way I came because I was so contorted in this small spiral space, and the water was coming up fast. My next thoughts were that I knew drowning was not painful, it was the waiting and struggling that was horrible, and wondering if anyone would find my body... I awoke after that.

A few nights later, I dreamed that I was in my Dad's house, I saw my younger brother as an adult, as he would look now if he were still alive (he was killed in an accidental shooting 20 something years ago), he looked really good, quite normal (his life was anything but normal, he had lots of problems I will not go into here), I realized that everything looked extra sharp, extra bright without being blinding, there were almost no shadows, everything looked extra real, better than any high-def TV ever thought of being. I realized that I was dead, this was as if I had died instead of my brother, when that thought struck me, I wondered if I could communicate with anyone, so I went up to my brother and I touched my first two fingers of one hand to just under my eyes and then I touched my fingers to just under my brother's eyes, like those military guys do when they are trying to say "keep your eyes peeled" to another soldier in the movies without saying anything. I felt my brother but it was somewhat different than touching something solid, I can't explain, my fingers felt him but he didn't seem to notice the touch. I awoke right after that, it was a strange dream.

I have often wondered how the physical world looks when you are in the spirit world, I've heard different theories, I've heard that the spirits don't see the physical world, they just see lights and such (energy), or that they only see their realms, not ours... now I wonder if what I saw in my dream is how everything looks to a spirit when they are in the physical realm...

Floaters

Christmas is nearly here, things are going very well for us. I'm still experiencing the paranormal, the main thing I'm seeing right now is sparkly lights, I see them regularly, the way I test to know if it's something going on in my eyes (floaters and such), when I see one of these sparkly lights, I will move my eyes, I'll look slightly away from the sparkle, if the sparkle stays in the same place in the air, I know it's really there, if the sparkle moves with my eyes, then I know I'm seeing a floater or something that is going on inside my head or eyes.

I will admit that sometimes I am seeing floaters and such, the thing I see moves with my eyes, and that's OK, it happens, not everything that I see is paranormal, and I try my best to determine whether something has a "natural" explanation.

I don't know what these sparkly lights are, they are almost always in the air, above my height, nearer to the ceiling. sometimes it's a single pinpoint of light, sometimes it's multiple lights like a sparkler, these usually move a little, perhaps a few inches, often in an arc shape. I don't know if these are spirits, other kinds of entities or just a display of something electrical.

I believe that we are in the end times (Biblical), I wonder if the closer we get into the end times, the thinner the veil becomes between this physical world and the spiritual world...

Jim Harold's Campfire True Ghost Stories-Book Review

Here I am, still alive and kicking :) The summer has been really busy for me, had family out for an extended visit, now everything has slowed down to normal for me, I can start writing more. A little while back, I was contacted by a publisher to do a book review, I replied saying that I would be more than happy to do so, it's funny because this publisher had no idea that I do book reviews on a regular basis, mostly having to do with the other part of my life, living 100% off grid, I gave the publisher the link to my book reviews and after reading them, he seemed very pleased about that.

The book I received is Jim Harold's Campfire: True Ghost Stories This is the perfect fall, October, Halloween book, I have enjoyed reading this book, with the night coming on faster and the cool crisp evenings, it's the perfect book to curl up with, just remember to leave the lights on in the rest of the house, LOL. I haven't read many books merely for pleasure, not in a long time, I am truly happy with this one.

I assume if you are reading my paranormal blog, you are probably familiar with Jim Harold, mainly through his Paranormal Podcast shows. I have heard of him, but have to admit that I haven't listened to his shows, though after reading this book, that will be changing. The biggest reason (and probably the only reason) why I haven't listened is because it appeared that I would have to sign up with iTunes and just didn't want to do that (yeah, I'm stubborn like that sometimes...).

So, back to the book, this is a collection of stories from the call ins from Harold's show, people call in and share their paranormal stories, the best and most memorable ones are all here in this collection, stories about ghosts, UFOs, aliens, monsters, dreams, death, stories that defy categorization and even some of Harold's own eerie experiences.

Most of the stories are short, some as little as a few paragraphs, some are more elaborate, since the book is written exactly from the callers' own words, it took me a little bit to get used to the "writing style", there really isn't one, but once I came to an understanding about that, I just tried to imagine what the caller's voice must have sounded like, I tried to "hear" the words as I read them, then I really began to enjoy reading the different stories.

Each story is different, one of my favorite stories is chapter 9, it's called The Girl in the Attic, it's about a girl who goes to visit a friend who lives some hours away, the friend has an attic and they find a little girl up there, they "play" with her but she seemed a bit different, nothing that really bothered them though. Later she figures out that no one really knows about this little girl in the attic, so she figures the attic girl must be a ghost. I like that one because it reminds me of one of my first paranormal experiences, I had a playmate when I was very young that no one else could see, he wasn't imaginary, I knew the difference, he came over and we played everyday, I didn't realize he must have been a ghost until many years later.

Some of the stories ring very true with me, some of them remind me of being a little girl and telling scary stories to each other during sleep overs and such, it's funny how we were always trying to scare each other so much. I've had quite a good time reading this book, Jim Harold really hit it out of the ballpark on this one, I highly recommend it, you should be able to find it in any good bookstore, especially this time of the year. If not, you can get it on Amazon, it's a really good price right now, and you get free shipping. :)

My Latest Thing...

Things have been going on pretty normally, at least normal for me LOL, that is until a few days ago, things have been pretty quiet, then I began to see odd things, I am seeing "movement" in the air, usually looking like a bit of smoke or a disturbance in the air, it's usually almost directly where I am already looking, I am pretty used to seeing odd things, but these have been odder than usual, not so much what I have been seeing, but more the feeling I get when I see them. I can't explain it exactly, it's just something that is really catching my attention more than usual. I know this must sound like gibberish, it's the best I can do in explaining. I'm not getting bad feelings, but it's definitely catching my attention each time.

I saw it 2 or 3 times just today, and I know I've seen it several other times in the previous days. I'll just keep watching and trying to figure out what it is, I'll pray about it too, there must be a reason why I'm seeing this same (or similar) thing over and over again.

UFO and Paranormal Videos

I'm liking the look of the site, hope you do to. :)

I found a great video made by LA Marzulli, he also has a blog, I first discovered him on Coast to Coast am, his take on UFO and paranormal phenomena is Biblical in nature, I'm starting to lean more toward his beliefs about these sorts of things. He has also written a great series collectively called the Nephilim Trilogy by LA Marzulli.

This is called The Watchers, please watch and enjoy, post a comment and let me know what you think.

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There is a new video out called The Watchers 2, I'll be looking for that one too, here is a preview of that one:





Looks like it will be good!

Blog-a-Lift

I'm working on some changes to this blog, it's time to freshen this little spot on the internet, I'm still playing, so be patient with me, I usually do this sort of thing late at night so I hope I don't interrupt too many of you, my wonderful readers!

Life is goooood!

A Possible Revelation...

A  few weeks ago, during a weekly Christian class I attend, I was made aware that "casting lots" meant more than just gambling, I'm talking about what I would call a sort of divination, a way to get answers from God that was used in the past (Bible days).

After my baptism, I didn't want to do anything that would be displeasing to God, and the Bible clearly states to not perform divination, yet it seems that the Bible is full of examples of what could be called divination done in the name of the Lord, tonight I came to a conclusion about the seemingly contradictory parts of the Bible.

I have been studying the Bible about the gifts of the Spirit tonight, as I wandered around the Scriptures, I was reading about sacrifices, now the Bible clearly states not to worship idols, that would include any kind of sacrifices made to an idol, yet the Bible also talks about sacrificing to God, that is a good thing, so it is not the act of sacrificing that is considered good or bad, it is the intent of the person making the sacrifice, is it to God or to an idol? The one to the idol is clearly wrong and the one to God is clearly good.

So what if I treat divination the same way? If it is performed through and with the power of God, then it must be good, if it is performed with and through anything else but God, then it would be considered bad. I am specifically talking about using dowsing rods and any other tool to get answers. This is not to say I would rely on such tools all of the time, just when necessary and needed, again used with the utmost care and with much prayer.

There are lots of other examples like this in the Bible, bowing and worshiping, praying, seeking answers... do these to an idol (or anything other than God) and it's wrong, do these to God and it's good, so it's not the act that is good or bad, it's who we do it toward or about that determines whether or not it's a good or bad thing.

I will discuss this with my pastor and see what he thinks about this line of thinking, I'll also pray and ask God about this, I know He will confirm this, or blow it out of the water. :)

Better and Better

Things are moving along quite nicely for me, I have been praying, studying and seeking about this prophesy thing, and you know what? It turns out I've been doing it all along, I just didn't have a name for it, I've gotten much more comfortable with it too, not complacent though, I have to be careful to treat this with the reverence it deserves, and as always, this does not come FROM me but THROUGH me, it's my gift but not MY ability. I also have to trust God that He will give me the knowledge, the wisdom and the tools necessary to do all of these things.

I am forever thankful that the spiritual part of my life wasn't taken from me when I was baptized, though I was prepared to leave it all behind if that was the will of God, this might sound like an oxymoron, but it's so liberating turning everything over to God, I have no more doubts about the spiritual part of my life, any questions I have (past, present and future) I just pray about it, ask for an answer (or confirmation) and leave it alone, the answer (or confirmation) always comes in good time. I even wondered if I should take this blog down, some of my regular readers might have noticed that I deleted some of the articles I wrote, things that I didn't know if they were something I would want my pastor to read should he find this, now I know this blog is here to stay, I will be revamping it to reflect the view I have now, so keep coming back and be looking for the new look. :)

I feel like my spiritual life and my religious life were two different, but parallel paths, now those paths are merging and I couldn't be happier about it. Life is definitely good! Thank you to my long time readers, and welcome to my new readers, hang on, this ride is about to get going. :)

The Dream

Friday night, the 20th of May, I had a dream, I don't normally remember my dreams, not that I don't dream or I don't remember all of my dreams, they just usually aren't something that I think about much after I wake up. I know I dream and some leave impressions on me, but I don't usually "dream" about significant things, not on a regular basis. That night was different, I was having a regular dream, nothing exciting or different, there was a person, a lady I believe, though it's not someone I know, this lady suddenly turned to me and said "Your spiritual gift is prophesy"... or she might have said "you are a prophet", I can't remember exactly which it was, but the meaning is the same. I woke up right after that, I began to pray to God, I said that if this was true and from Him, to please give me confirmation. Honestly, this was not something I ever reached for, not something I felt that I needed to do, in fact, it's a bit scary to be given such a "gift", I would rather do healing ministries, and I very well may be allowed to do that too. Anyhoo, I didn't say anything about this to anyone, I didn't want to  spoil the chance of anyone who might confirm this.

So today at church (Sunday), the pastor made a comment about spiritual gifts, he used me as an example saying that I play piano at church, but that might not be my only gift, there may be other things for me to do. After church was over, a lady I know, but not someone I talk to regularly, said she needed to talk to me. I thought she was going to talk about doing pottery or something like that (she's a wonderful artist), she asked me if I knew what my gift is? It was a rhetorical question, she was about to tell me, she said my gift is prophesy. I did not expect to hear that from her, the funny thing is she didn't expect to say it to me either, but she knew she was supposed to give me that info, so she did. Well, there is my confirmation. I had heard the word prophesy several times over the last couple of days, but didn't want to accept that as confirmation, that could have just been coincidence, but there was no way that this lady telling me about my gift was coincidence. So there it is.

I think I am taking this the same way I took being instructed by God to go into the music ministry, it scared the crap outta me to think I was going to play piano in front of the church, or sing or be the music leader for praise and worship... my response to God was, "who, me?"... well, if I must, then please give me the courage, and He did! Now I enjoy it, even if I do freeze up every now and again, I still play and sing to the best of my ability. So now, if this is the direction God wants me to go in, then I have to have faith that He will give me the tools I need to accomplish this, I just have to remember that this isn't coming FROM me, it's coming THROUGH me, I just have to be a willing vessel.

Oh yeah, I said there was 2 things. Last week, while at the Christian class, it was mentioned about people in the Bible "casting lots", I had heard this term before, but thought it meant a form of gambling. Turns out it CAN be used for gambling, but it also had deeper meaning. It turns out that the Levite priests used this to get answers from God, they had (apparently) a black rock and a white rock, one meant "yes", the other "no". I asked my pastor if this was sanctioned by God? Apparently it was, not only sanctioned and approved, but encouraged.

I asked if this could be considered "divining" or divination? I waited until after the class to discuss this further with pastor. My thoughts are, I have experimented with dowsing in the past, when I got baptized, I didn't want to do anything that might be against God's will, I wasn't sure about dowsing, even though I felt like it was OK, there was enough of a doubt that I set it aside and asked God for guidance on the matter. I feel like I am about to get my answer on this matter, I talked to pastor today to remind him that I set up an appointment with him on Monday before the class to discuss this subject. He told me that he had a lot of info on his computer and that he would give me the files for me to read. It turns out that my pastor has no problems with dowsing, he considers it an autonomic response, a physical response and not anything spiritual. I did tell him that I didn't look for water, but I had used it to get answers from God, he seemed OK with that, though a little concerned about being so close to that line that I tend to walk. I will be very interested to see what he got for me.

I also have access to a genuine Levite, I'll explain more about that later. I plan on asking this man about this as well, though this will be next month before I will see him.

Lot's O' Stuff Going On

I have been meaning to write more here, don't ya just hate it when a blogger keeps saying that? So here I am. My spiritual life has been growing and growing.  I am getting more and more comfortable with myself and my spirituality at the same time. I had a few adjustments to make after my baptism, there were some small things were taken from me, at the time I had no idea what those would be, I just hoped it wouldn't be everything about my spiritual life, but was willing to give up any and all of it if that was necessary, I can truly thank God that it was not all taken, just tweaked to be even better.

My walk and talk with God has gotten better and better, closer and closer. I am participating in a Christian class at church, it's by John MacArthur, it's called Fundamentals of the Faith, I have enjoyed learning more and more, even if I don't agree with everything MacArthur says, especially about the spiritual gifts, he says some of them were only meant for the Bible days and aren't meant for today, I disagree, when God gives gifts, He doesn't take them back. I also know that we humans aren't going to agree with each other 100% of the time...

To update some of my spiritual experiences I have had recently, a month ago (+/-) I was in my Bug on the way to church in the afternoon, I was by myself, I live in a very rural area with mountainous dirt roads that are curvy and have lots of hills and valleys. There are places where the road is not wide enough for 2 vehicles to pass, it's a good idea to drive slow out here, sometimes I will think I'm going too fast only to look down and see I am going 15 mph. Anyhoo, I was going to the church, doing my normal speed on this particular part of the road, I was "told" to slow down, I didn't question it or even think about it, I just did it, I dropped my speed by about 5 mph, I began looking ahead to see why I had been instructed to slow down. I expected to see animals in the road (a common occurrence out here), maybe deer or feral donkeys, I was coming to a curve in the road when I saw the UPS truck coming the opposite direction, he was in the middle of the road coming around that curve, there was not enough room for both of us to be on that spot at the same time, if I hadn't slowed down, I would have been there at the same time as the UPS truck, would there have been a crash? I don't know, possibly a crash, possibly one or both of us might have ended up sliding off the road, I do know that it would have been at least a close call, not something I relish thinking about, much less experiencing...

I am still seeing into the spirit world, little sparks of light, the glowing orbs, the shadows and such.  For the most part, I just look and go on, I don't try to interact or communicate with whatever these things are. My neighbor's house had been pretty quiet the last few months, but things have been ramping back up, I have been seeing different things there, things like sparks of light near the ceiling. Yesterday, I was down there with my Dad, he had fallen asleep in the recliner, I laid down on the couch to catch a nap too, when I saw a large, shaggy looking shadow flying across the cabinet doors in the dining room, I have been seeing more and more activity in that part of the house. This only lasted a few seconds, but was significantly different from the other things I have seen there, it left an impression on my mind. I didn't say anything to my Dad about this though. So today, after church, we ate lunch at my neighbor's house, then my Dad laid back in the recliner and wanted to take a nap, I told him I was going up to my house, if he needed me, he could call me.

I had gotten up to my house (it's a bit of a hike up a mountain side to get to my house), I had enough time to get on the internet and check my email when my Dad called, he said he needed me back down there asap. When I got there, he was a little shaken up, he said he had not been asleep yet, but his eyes were closed, then something grabbed his foot. He opened his eyes and saw nothing, then he saw what he described at a large, dark tubular thing near the ceiling going toward the dining room. He rebuked it and it left him alone. Shortly after I got back down there, he told me that he saw something else, it looked like a small bird going toward the dining room, his dog also responded to this. It's strange that the sightings in that house had changed so much, I hadn't said anything to my Dad about this, yet he is also seeing these things too.

I have another 2 things to write about, I'll only tease you with them and say they are VERY GOOD THINGS, exciting things, somewhat scary too, but not in the spooky sense, scary because of the great potential and the responsibility that go with it. I'll write about them in the next few days.

I'm Still Here!

Although it would seem that I have forgotten about this blog, rest assured that I haven't, I will say that things have and are changing in my life, these are good things, good changes.

Last summer/fall I was baptized at church, I have considered myself a Christian since I was a teenager. The one thing I rebelled against was being baptized, I needed to determine if this was a man made "rule" or if this was something commanded by God. I finally came to the conclusion that this was not an absolute rule that had to be adhered to to get into Heaven, BUT I did determine that it was something that I needed to do, it is an outward show that you have died to your old life and are born again, resurrected to your new, Christian life. When I decided that I wanted to do it, I did it and it was wonderful, my Dad was present, I was the last kid that he had who hadn't been baptized, so I really wanted him there.

I did a lot of praying before my baptism, a lot of it had to do with the spiritual side of my life, the "church" in general tends to frown on the things I do, see and experience, they say it's all demonic, from and of the devil. I don't believe that, but I still want to be obedient to God, so my final prayer as I was going to the baptismal was for God to remove any part of my spiritual life and experience that was not of Him and from Him.

Once I went under the water, I had that thought in my mind, along with the fact that the water was cold. I was worried about what might be removed from me, how much of what I did and experienced would be removed? Once I came up out of the water, I did feel some things draining/lifting from my being, these were very minor things, small things, I have not missed them one little bit, I do not regret my prayer nor the response.  I fully believe that there were some negative spiritual influences around me, call them demons or evil spirits if you want, those are gone now, I pretty much knew they were there but thought I was strong enough to keep them at a distance.

I still see spirits, I see the shadows and movements, I still know things that are going to happen before they happen, I still feel and sense people (living), my healing prayers are stronger than ever (thank you God!), I feel that my prayers are powerful, strong, I am cautious about what I pray for and about, you know the old saying, be careful what you ask for, you may get it, that is such a truism. I am not bragging, this is simply fact.

So for now, I'll break off, I need to go to bed, gotta get up early in the morning, I just wanted to let you know that I'm still here, and better than ever!