Faith

It's funny, for some people they absolutely have to understand something before they will accept it, fortunately that isn't the case for me, that's not to say I don't have a curiosity about how things work, I do, but I have enough faith to accept that which I do not understand.

One of those things in my life is my "ability" to know something or someone is about to enter my life (for the first time or again). What happens is I will suddenly, usually out of the blue think of something or someone, it will be more than just a passing thought, it will often remain on my mind, I have learned through past experience that usually means I will be getting a phone call, or I'll run into that person soon. It happens more often with people, but sometimes it happens with inanimate objects too.

This just happened tonight, let's backtrack a bit. Many years ago, I had made a special music CD for my (late) mom, this was a song that I created using software called Sonic, the song was a techno song, I even made a hand drawn label to go in the CD case. I thought I had lost that song and CD, I didn't have the original anymore, there are a precious few copies, but they seemed lost too. The other day I thought about that song, I lamented the fact that I probably would never hear it again. I thought about that CD and song off and on for most of the day, then put the thought away.

This evening, I was chatting online with my sister, she told me that she found her copy of that CD, she had misplaced it too, I was so excited, she is going to make a copy and scan the hand drawn cover too, I will once again have this song and a copy of the cover.

Now for the understanding part, I wonder how this works, is it a matter of my "mind" knowing more about what is going on in time and space and somehow I knew I was about to "find" this lost item again, or did I somehow put out the intention of wanting to find it again and that is how it came back into my life again (I drew it into my life)...

I don't believe these are just coincidences, it happens too often, I have no "proof" to provide, I just know it happens, and happens frequently and regularly. I don't "try" to do it, I don't try to control it, it just happens. Fortunately I am usually able to recognize it as it is happening, usually about people, not so much about things, I will start thinking about someone and I start looking for them, knowing I will see or talk to them soon, usually within a week or less.

Bloodlines and Points

My bloodlines are many and varied, I am English, Irish, German-Dutch, Comanche and Apache, this is in no particular order, it's merely the order in which I memorized it. I know that my Native American bloodlines were/are very spiritual, I understand that the Irish can be superstitious as well as having a rich spiritual history, I don't know about the English or German-Dutch, I searched and didn't find too much. Though I did find something interesting about one superstition that many people do, it's knocking on wood, I have often wondered where and how that one came about. I found another reason why people knock on wood.

This is for the German ancestors.

When you see your friends at a Stammtisch in a German bar, you have to greet them by knocking on the wooden table 3 times. It is said that most Stammtisch tables used to be made of Oak wood, and the Devil was unable to touch Oak wood, because it was a holy tree. So knocking on the table was proving you weren’t the Devil. source

I have no idea what or who Stammtisch is. OK, a quick toss around Google and I find: The word Stammtisch is German. It is not easily translated into English but it means something like "regular's table" or "regular get-together".

I know I got the Irish and American Indian from my mother, and my mother's side of the family were spiritual in the sense that they could see spirits and spiritual activity. I was told the story of my mother as a young teen, maybe younger than that, she saw a snake going from one bedroom across the hall into her bedroom. This was no ordinary snake, it's body was at least a foot thick, she never saw the head or tail, she got her dad, my grandfather, he saw it too.

They both went into her bedroom to look for this snake, they never found it, I understand my grandfather tore the room apart, even going so far as to take a knife and cut open an upholstered chair just in case it got in there. They never found the snake, nor did they see it again. This snake was much too large to have gotten past anyone, there were no open windows. My grandfather refused to talk about it.

I have been in that house both as a young child, and a teen, that house was very active with spirit activity, I was never completely comfortable in that house. I think there was a lot of unhappiness in that house over the years.

I wonder if my mother's side of the family, being of Irish and Native American descent is the reason why I have been so blessed with the ability to see into the spirit world.

I wonder if just being in a family that was open to and aware of the spirit world was the reason...

I wonder if certain nationalities are more open to that sort of thing? I wonder if it's heredity in the same way hair and eye color can be, or even more like artistic or musical ability.

That's another thing, being artistic and/or musical. I also come from artists and musicians, perhaps that also allows the creative mind to blossom, therefore also being more open to the spirit world.

Perhaps it's like "points", having a Native American and Irish blood gives me a couple of "points", being from musical and artistic people gave me a couple of "points", having an open minded (about the belief in the spirit world) family gives me a "point", rack up enough "points" and boom, eyes open, can see into the spirit world... Maybe if you don't have or get enough "points", you generally don't get to do this.

My father says he really never had experiences like this until he met and married my mother, perhaps my dad had nearly enough "points", being a creative and musical person, and whatever else he had going for him that might allow for this, but not quite enough until he met my mother, that being what pushed it over the top and them boom, his eyes are opened...

All these questions to ponder...

Good or Bad?

Everyone has opinions about spirits, ghosts and other unexplainable, paranormal things. I find many people, though certainly not all people, on the extremes of the scale of whether or not these represent good or evil. Either they believe that all things in this arena are evil, demons, restless spirits with nothing better to do than scare the bejeebers out of us... or they believe it all angelic, higher beings, spirit guides whose sole purpose in life (or after life) is to guide and protect us.

Either these things are all to be feared or all to be believed with no questions asked. I think I fell somewhere in the middle, I certainly don't believe it's all evil, and I certainly don't blindly believe it's all good either.

I generally don't know how to classify what I see, it just "is". Most of the time I see something, or hear something, or smell something, I just observe, rarely interact. I can usually tell the difference between an active entity and a residual (a recording, or memory), though sometimes I don't realize it's a residual until I see it for the second time. There is a good article about residuals on History's Mysteries blog, it's worth a read.

On the rare occasions when I am talking to someone about ghosts and such, more often than not, I get to hear a story about a negative experience, either the thing in the closet that scared them as a kid, the visit from the scary lady in white just before grandma died, the haunted house up the street where the witch lived (kids, don't go there)...

I often wonder why most people have little to no paranormal activity around them, and of the few that do, why does it nearly always seem to be negative or scary? Another thing I notice, is on the rare occasions when I'm discussing this sort of thing with someone, they often start getting scared, jumpy, looking around, it's as if merely talking about might make it happen, or perhaps for a few minutes, they are more open to the spirit world and that scares them. Just about the time I really start getting into the conversation, it's clear that they want to stop talking about it. I know of a few people who don't mind discussing this sort of thing, sadly I don't get to converse with them often enough, at least not often enough for me. That's probably a lot of my motivation for writing this blog.

Fortunately, or not depending on your point of view, with the populatiry of shows like Ghost Hunters and shows like it, it's easier to talk to people about spirit stuff, I can generally figure out is someone is open to the subject merely by asking if they watch that show (or other's like it), if they have watched it, they usually have strong opinions about it, either they think it entertainment only, or they really get into it, either way I can tell by what comes out of their mouth right after that. :-)

Oh well, life goes on... this is message number 49 for this blog. I tend to focus more on my other blogs, about living off grid, something I do every day too. I will give more attention to this blog, post more of my paranormal history, as well as posting my day to day experiences, good and bad.