Monday, March 14, 2011

I'm Still Here!

Although it would seem that I have forgotten about this blog, rest assured that I haven't, I will say that things have and are changing in my life, these are good things, good changes.

Last summer/fall I was baptized at church, I have considered myself a Christian since I was a teenager. The one thing I rebelled against was being baptized, I needed to determine if this was a man made "rule" or if this was something commanded by God. I finally came to the conclusion that this was not an absolute rule that had to be adhered to to get into Heaven, BUT I did determine that it was something that I needed to do, it is an outward show that you have died to your old life and are born again, resurrected to your new, Christian life. When I decided that I wanted to do it, I did it and it was wonderful, my Dad was present, I was the last kid that he had who hadn't been baptized, so I really wanted him there.

I did a lot of praying before my baptism, a lot of it had to do with the spiritual side of my life, the "church" in general tends to frown on the things I do, see and experience, they say it's all demonic, from and of the devil. I don't believe that, but I still want to be obedient to God, so my final prayer as I was going to the baptismal was for God to remove any part of my spiritual life and experience that was not of Him and from Him.

Once I went under the water, I had that thought in my mind, along with the fact that the water was cold. I was worried about what might be removed from me, how much of what I did and experienced would be removed? Once I came up out of the water, I did feel some things draining/lifting from my being, these were very minor things, small things, I have not missed them one little bit, I do not regret my prayer nor the response.  I fully believe that there were some negative spiritual influences around me, call them demons or evil spirits if you want, those are gone now, I pretty much knew they were there but thought I was strong enough to keep them at a distance.

I still see spirits, I see the shadows and movements, I still know things that are going to happen before they happen, I still feel and sense people (living), my healing prayers are stronger than ever (thank you God!), I feel that my prayers are powerful, strong, I am cautious about what I pray for and about, you know the old saying, be careful what you ask for, you may get it, that is such a truism. I am not bragging, this is simply fact.

So for now, I'll break off, I need to go to bed, gotta get up early in the morning, I just wanted to let you know that I'm still here, and better than ever!