Big Rigs At Night

Had yet another road intuition experience, on Friday I had driven to a town that is about 3 hours away from where I live, most of the ride is long stretches of 2 lane highways with little traffic and lots of nothing to see. It was getting dark when my friend and I were driving home,  I was driving, the speed limit is 75, I don't drive that fast at night, too many critters potentially running across the road. There was a big rig in front of me driving slower that I was, there was no other traffic around, I started gauging when it would be good to pass the truck.

I looked toward the left lane next to the truck and was about to speed up to pass, I immediately got a feeling not to pass, I can't explain exactly what I saw, but the space next to the truck seemed to be like a void, an empty, truly empty space, one that if we drove into it, would be paramount to driving into a black hole, as if we would cease to exist, I didn't think we would make it home if I passed this truck at that time. Needless to say, I chose to stay behind that truck for a while longer.

About 5-7 minutes later, that feeling left and I decided it was time to pass this truck, as I did, there was an on ramp to the highway, there were two big rigs on the on ramp entering the highway, they were going a bit too fast and when they merged onto the highway, their trailers whipped into the other lane, they took up both lanes temporarily. If I had passed the truck in front of me when I first wanted to, I believe I would have been right where those two trucks entered the highway, probably having an encounter that would have resulted in our deaths.

The rest of the trip was uneventful. I do put my feelers out for animals as I am driving, I felt nothing from them, and had none of them jumped out in front of me.

Intelligent Prickles

Had another one of those "little voice" experiences, well, maybe less of a voice and more of an intelligent prickle... a couple of days ago I was going to my friend's house, my neighborhood has nothing but unpaved, aka dirt roads that go up and down, in and out, there are no traffic signs (stop, yield or such), there is very little traffic and generally people drive pretty slow out here so traffic signs aren't necessary.

So, on my way to my friend's house, I came upon a T in the road, I had to turn one way or the other, the direction I turned (to the right) causes me to make a choice between going over some major bumps in the road, actually they are deep ruts that are washed out from the last rain we had, or I have to go wide to miss the rough patch and I end up on the wrong side of the road, I'm also in the process of driving uphill, quite steeply, so driving on the wrong side of the road, going uphill and turning at the same time, got that? OK, before I went into the turn, I scan left and right to make sure no one is coming, that includes cars, trucks, 3 and 4 wheelers, pedestrians, horses (with or without riders), dogs, cats, donkeys, deer, javelinas, or other things, if it is moving, I have to yield or stop no matter what.

I didn't see anyone or anything coming in either direction, there usually isn't anyone coming, we have very little traffic, so I put out my "feelers" to detect if anyone or anything was coming, my feelers prickled back from the direction I was about to turn toward, so instead of pulling wide to the left to miss the rough road (which would have put me on the wrong side of the road and going face to face with what or who ever was coming) I slowly pulled across  the rough patch, staying very close to the right side of the road.

Sure enough, a jeep with a young driver (I know who he is) came around the corner toward me, not going too fast but fast enough that he skidded just a little when he saw me, I think he over compensated a bit, turning his wheel harder and hitting the brakes a bit. Had I not "felt" him coming, I would have been on the wrong side of the road, heading face to face with him, we probably wouldn't have hit each other, but it could have happened, it would have put me in a bad spot... at any rate, I do actively use my feelers, especially on blind turns and such where I am more likely to have a problem if I'm not alert (or alerted) to what is coming...

This also works for me when I am driving at night, that is pretty rare having to go out after dark, but occasionally necessary. The biggest problem that could happen while driving after dark is the critters that come out, the same ones I listed above, the most dangerous ones are deer and javelina, and the occasional skunk, dog, fox or coyote. The first two will really mess you up if you hit one, especially if you are going at higher speeds, the rest of them will just make a mess of your car but could still cause you to lose control... so the thing I do is I drop my speed considerably, I do not do 70 which is the typical highway speed out here until you get into the neighborhood, then you do 5-15 at night. Again, I put out my feelers as I am driving, and when I get that prickle, I slow down even more and look for whatever it might be, I will often see the critter, sometimes I don't, but it has saved my bacon more times that I can count.

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On another note, I am seeing a lot more things, such as movements in the air, shadows and amorphous shapes shooting across my field of vision, we aren't talking floaters either, I have methods to detect whether or not it's something going on with my vision, when I see something, I'll slightly move where I'm looking, if the thing moves with me, then I know it's a floater or something going on inside my head, if it stays in the same place or continues to move in the same manner, then I know it's outside of my head, in 3D space in front of me.

Sometimes these things are like sparks of light, sometimes a single spark, sometimes multiple sparks (like a sparkler), sometimes it's like a shadow, smoke like, I don't recall seeing anything really solid though, it's usually transparent or semi-transparent. It's almost always in the air above me, just slightly, maybe a foot or two above my head level, though it can be lower, closer to floor level. These things typically last a second or two, I don't ever recall seeing something like this for longer, it's almost a streak, by the time I really get a good look it's gone. I do wish I knew what these are, I have some theories, but no proof.

Faith

It's funny, for some people they absolutely have to understand something before they will accept it, fortunately that isn't the case for me, that's not to say I don't have a curiosity about how things work, I do, but I have enough faith to accept that which I do not understand.

One of those things in my life is my "ability" to know something or someone is about to enter my life (for the first time or again). What happens is I will suddenly, usually out of the blue think of something or someone, it will be more than just a passing thought, it will often remain on my mind, I have learned through past experience that usually means I will be getting a phone call, or I'll run into that person soon. It happens more often with people, but sometimes it happens with inanimate objects too.

This just happened tonight, let's backtrack a bit. Many years ago, I had made a special music CD for my (late) mom, this was a song that I created using software called Sonic, the song was a techno song, I even made a hand drawn label to go in the CD case. I thought I had lost that song and CD, I didn't have the original anymore, there are a precious few copies, but they seemed lost too. The other day I thought about that song, I lamented the fact that I probably would never hear it again. I thought about that CD and song off and on for most of the day, then put the thought away.

This evening, I was chatting online with my sister, she told me that she found her copy of that CD, she had misplaced it too, I was so excited, she is going to make a copy and scan the hand drawn cover too, I will once again have this song and a copy of the cover.

Now for the understanding part, I wonder how this works, is it a matter of my "mind" knowing more about what is going on in time and space and somehow I knew I was about to "find" this lost item again, or did I somehow put out the intention of wanting to find it again and that is how it came back into my life again (I drew it into my life)...

I don't believe these are just coincidences, it happens too often, I have no "proof" to provide, I just know it happens, and happens frequently and regularly. I don't "try" to do it, I don't try to control it, it just happens. Fortunately I am usually able to recognize it as it is happening, usually about people, not so much about things, I will start thinking about someone and I start looking for them, knowing I will see or talk to them soon, usually within a week or less.

OK, now what?

So how does one reconcile the fact that I hear a voice (inside my head) that isn't ME, yet I know I'm perfectly sane, at least by most medical and psychological standards? Oh, I'm not having a problem with this, but the rest of the world sure might. I had a psychologist, who knew me very well, tell me that I should apply for MENSA, she also told me that some of the less than sane people she dealt with were also some of the most intelligent and interesting people she knew. Hmmmm, makes you wonder...   Darn it, I miss her.

Let me tell you about this voice, it's been with me most, if not all of my life, as far back as I can remember. I don't have a conversation (or even argument) with this voice, it just breaks in every now and again when needed to give me some information. Some would call it my guardian angel, some might call it my higher self, or intuition, some might even say it was God, I never named it, it's not like that, it just is and always has been with me. When I hear it, it does sound very similar to my own thought track/chatter that goes on most of the time. But when I hear it, I know it didn't originate from MY thoughts. It's not intrusive, no it doesn't tell me to do crazy things, in fact it has guided me and helped me on more than one occasion.

In fact, the times I do get into "trouble" is when I don't listen to the voice. For example, I used to drive a half hour to work (and the same back home again). I had multiple ways I could go, sometimes I took the freeway, sometimes I took the back roads. I might be driving on the freeway, and the voice would say, "Take the next exit...", I was being directed to get off the freeway and go another way, so I would take the next exit, upon cresting the next hill, I would see the cars still on the freeway would be at a standstill, either a wreck, or some other reason the cars would not be moving. I was forewarned to take another route, I would miss the traffic jam and get to work (or home) in time. Sometimes I wouldn't see what the potential problem or reason was for the detour, but I always listened. 

It was when I didn't listen that things went wrong, like the time I was working at a fast food taco shack, it was a slow night, we were within an hour of closing, the other employee and I were taking a break in the office before starting our closing duties. We heard the front door open and customers walking in, we both got up and started walking toward the front counter. As I walked out of the office, I passed the back door, everything in my being was insisting very hard (in my head) for me to go out that door, leave and not to look back. I wrestled with that, how could I just walk out the back door for no apparent reason? How would I explain THAT to anyone, "Yeah, this "voice" in my head told me to do it...". 

So I walked up to the front counter, with that voice continuing to insist, very hard, that I turn around and go out the back door. Well it turned out that the "customers" who had walked in had other ideas besides buying tacos. They robbed us at gunpoint, that was one of the scariest nights of my life, looking into the wild eyes of the very high man who was pointing a loaded revolver in my face, he was yelling too. Things turned out ok, no one was hurt, I wonder how things might have turned out if I had LISTENED to that more than insistent voice that night?

Yeah, you bet I listen now, I have listened without hesitation from that night on.

Sometimes that voice tells me something that hasn't happened yet but will. This doesn't happen often, but it does happen on a semi-regular basis. When it happens, it's rather matter of fact, for instance I will be thinking about someone, and the "voice" says "________ will call...", or "You will see them soon...",  just like that, and it always happens like it says it will happen. I don't try to make this happen, I don't ask this voice for guidance, it is there when I need it though.

I wonder about other people who hear voices that aren't their own, people who aren't able to function in "normal" society, people who are classified as crazy, that man or woman who is standing in some public place carrying on a conversation with some unseen voice, of course now days that could just be someone talking on a hands free phone. But seriously, I wonder if these people are just wired differently are are hearing something that is every bit as real as me talking to you here? Maybe they have some chemistry or physical oddity in their brain that allows them to connect with the unknown, unseen but very real other dimensions.

Think about other animals and insects that can hear far above or below what we can hear, or what about those who can see into the spectrum that we are unable to perceive? The honey bee for example can see into the UV range, we are not supposed to be able to. I wonder if some of these people, considered on the fringes of society, the insane, the medicated, what if they are able to peer into these other realms, even interact with it, what if the rest of us are the ones with the limitations, what if we, the "normal" ones are really missing out on something wonderful?

I'm not saying that mental illness is something to strive for, nor am I making light of it, I realize it is a serious subject. I just try to think outside the box, maybe I'm wired a bit differently myself, and if I am, I would not have it any other way. :)

I did a Google search about this subject matter, it's interesting what I found.
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Hearing Voices

I started this post several weeks ago, I debated whether or not to publish it for the world to read, it is, after all, not generally considered acceptable to "hear voices" that aren't your own. I decided to go ahead and push the button and accept whatever comes my way as a result, I have bared a part of my inner self, my soul to you, my readers. This is who I am, my friends and family members who really know me, are often amazed when they learn how much this IS a part of my life, part of my psyche, part and parcel of who I am. One friend commented the other day that she just realized that I really DO listen to my intuition, I said "Yes, it's never lead me wrong."

A few days ago, something happened to me that many would have brushed off as coincidence, I don't now, though at the time I was perfectly happy to think it was nothing. I'm not ready to write about it yet, I will say that I might have a possible explanation for the things I see, the shadows, the movements, the dark and the light things. I'm still working on it, when I have something more concrete, something I can put down in writing, I'll post it here. Stay tuned.

Something's Coming

I feel something coming, I don't know what it is, it doesn't feel bad, or good, I know that may be hard to understand, I don't question it too much, I just try to observe. Sometimes I wish that I could get just a tiny bit more info, I just get what I get and usually nothing more. Something is coming, something is about to happen. I'll post more as I know it.