OK, now what?

So how does one reconcile the fact that I hear a voice (inside my head) that isn't ME, yet I know I'm perfectly sane, at least by most medical and psychological standards? Oh, I'm not having a problem with this, but the rest of the world sure might. I had a psychologist, who knew me very well, tell me that I should apply for MENSA, she also told me that some of the less than sane people she dealt with were also some of the most intelligent and interesting people she knew. Hmmmm, makes you wonder...   Darn it, I miss her.

Let me tell you about this voice, it's been with me most, if not all of my life, as far back as I can remember. I don't have a conversation (or even argument) with this voice, it just breaks in every now and again when needed to give me some information. Some would call it my guardian angel, some might call it my higher self, or intuition, some might even say it was God, I never named it, it's not like that, it just is and always has been with me. When I hear it, it does sound very similar to my own thought track/chatter that goes on most of the time. But when I hear it, I know it didn't originate from MY thoughts. It's not intrusive, no it doesn't tell me to do crazy things, in fact it has guided me and helped me on more than one occasion.

In fact, the times I do get into "trouble" is when I don't listen to the voice. For example, I used to drive a half hour to work (and the same back home again). I had multiple ways I could go, sometimes I took the freeway, sometimes I took the back roads. I might be driving on the freeway, and the voice would say, "Take the next exit...", I was being directed to get off the freeway and go another way, so I would take the next exit, upon cresting the next hill, I would see the cars still on the freeway would be at a standstill, either a wreck, or some other reason the cars would not be moving. I was forewarned to take another route, I would miss the traffic jam and get to work (or home) in time. Sometimes I wouldn't see what the potential problem or reason was for the detour, but I always listened. 

It was when I didn't listen that things went wrong, like the time I was working at a fast food taco shack, it was a slow night, we were within an hour of closing, the other employee and I were taking a break in the office before starting our closing duties. We heard the front door open and customers walking in, we both got up and started walking toward the front counter. As I walked out of the office, I passed the back door, everything in my being was insisting very hard (in my head) for me to go out that door, leave and not to look back. I wrestled with that, how could I just walk out the back door for no apparent reason? How would I explain THAT to anyone, "Yeah, this "voice" in my head told me to do it...". 

So I walked up to the front counter, with that voice continuing to insist, very hard, that I turn around and go out the back door. Well it turned out that the "customers" who had walked in had other ideas besides buying tacos. They robbed us at gunpoint, that was one of the scariest nights of my life, looking into the wild eyes of the very high man who was pointing a loaded revolver in my face, he was yelling too. Things turned out ok, no one was hurt, I wonder how things might have turned out if I had LISTENED to that more than insistent voice that night?

Yeah, you bet I listen now, I have listened without hesitation from that night on.

Sometimes that voice tells me something that hasn't happened yet but will. This doesn't happen often, but it does happen on a semi-regular basis. When it happens, it's rather matter of fact, for instance I will be thinking about someone, and the "voice" says "________ will call...", or "You will see them soon...",  just like that, and it always happens like it says it will happen. I don't try to make this happen, I don't ask this voice for guidance, it is there when I need it though.

I wonder about other people who hear voices that aren't their own, people who aren't able to function in "normal" society, people who are classified as crazy, that man or woman who is standing in some public place carrying on a conversation with some unseen voice, of course now days that could just be someone talking on a hands free phone. But seriously, I wonder if these people are just wired differently are are hearing something that is every bit as real as me talking to you here? Maybe they have some chemistry or physical oddity in their brain that allows them to connect with the unknown, unseen but very real other dimensions.

Think about other animals and insects that can hear far above or below what we can hear, or what about those who can see into the spectrum that we are unable to perceive? The honey bee for example can see into the UV range, we are not supposed to be able to. I wonder if some of these people, considered on the fringes of society, the insane, the medicated, what if they are able to peer into these other realms, even interact with it, what if the rest of us are the ones with the limitations, what if we, the "normal" ones are really missing out on something wonderful?

I'm not saying that mental illness is something to strive for, nor am I making light of it, I realize it is a serious subject. I just try to think outside the box, maybe I'm wired a bit differently myself, and if I am, I would not have it any other way. :)

I did a Google search about this subject matter, it's interesting what I found.
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Hearing Voices

I started this post several weeks ago, I debated whether or not to publish it for the world to read, it is, after all, not generally considered acceptable to "hear voices" that aren't your own. I decided to go ahead and push the button and accept whatever comes my way as a result, I have bared a part of my inner self, my soul to you, my readers. This is who I am, my friends and family members who really know me, are often amazed when they learn how much this IS a part of my life, part of my psyche, part and parcel of who I am. One friend commented the other day that she just realized that I really DO listen to my intuition, I said "Yes, it's never lead me wrong."

A few days ago, something happened to me that many would have brushed off as coincidence, I don't now, though at the time I was perfectly happy to think it was nothing. I'm not ready to write about it yet, I will say that I might have a possible explanation for the things I see, the shadows, the movements, the dark and the light things. I'm still working on it, when I have something more concrete, something I can put down in writing, I'll post it here. Stay tuned.

My Neighbor Is Fine

I spoke to my neighbor, it seems they are all ok with the exception of having the flu, so other than their illness, everything is ok. Still don't know who or what I saw before.

Strange Neighbor Sighting

Things have been pretty quiet, spirit wise for a while, that's pretty normal though, it seems to come and go in batches, I'll see a lot of activity then I will not see much of anything for a week or more. That is until Friday... I was going out to deliver some Sprite to an ill friend, on the way down to the bug, I was trying to see if my neighbor had come in yet, he and his lady friend were supposed to come in for the weekend. It was mid-day, well lit, we live in a rural, mountainous area with large lots so it takes a bit to walk down from my house to where we park, it's a bit of a distance from my property to my neighbor's property and there are quite a few trees. I walked across my property and started to walk over to my neighbor's side, I was still pretty far from his driveway, then I CLEARLY saw my neighbor's dog Sam, and my neighbor in their front yard, Sam was sitting in front of the porch on his long leash looking in my direction, my neighbor was over in the yard squatting on his haunches near some trees across the driveway. None of that was unusual, this is where I often see Sam, and I have come upon my neighbor "meditating" in or near the trees, usually sitting on a lower branch. I didn't see the truck though, which was strange, but I figured that maybe he had parked way around on the other end of the driveway, around on the other side of the garage area.  I decided not to continue going over there, I needed to get the Sprite to my ill friend, so I walked back to the bug and went on my way.

When I got home a while later, I went to my house and told Bob what I had seen, I started dinner and Bob decided to go see what was going on since I never saw my neighbor's truck, he walked over there. When he got back he told me that no one was home and no truck was there, I decided that I wanted to see if I had seen some sort of optical illusion, so I went back the same way I had originally gone to get over there, I didn't see anything, no dog, no dog shaped anything, no neighbor squatting on his haunches near the trees, no neighbor shaped shadows, I saw nothing that could account for what I had seen earlier.

My neighbor and his lady friend never came in this weekend as planned, today I tried to call him on his cell phone, it went straight to voice mail, it didn't ring, I left a message asking him to call. I am a bit worried, something I mentioned to Bob, I wonder if (Heaven forbid) that something happened to them on the way out, a car wreck or something, it would make sense that his spirit and the spirit of his dog would return to the place they love so much. For now I am assuming that is not the case and they are all alive and well.

I will update this post when I find out what happened, good or bad.